Had breakfast with halil this morning... we dont usually get to eat breakfast together...so this morning is an exception... i miss him. he is busy all the time.... :0)

Yes! finally... i could walk at my fav spot again... The surrounding.... the people there..even my *adopted* cat.... he must have missed me today coz he didnt even once try to bite me once....i i simply adore this park... i wish i can show u the park.. the view in fall.. but i cant..i am still waiting for my camera to be fixed... the nikkon service center is still waiting for the parts they have ordered from singapore..... i promise once i have the digital camera again...i will snap the pics for u to see...

Walked one hour n a half at the park again... the mp3 on... it was wonderful to see the normal regulars... some old..some young..some slim...some chubby...some were even walking with the walking sticks...the aerobics at the centre of the park... it is a morning community..where some people know each other while some like me know nobody....but still we recognise each other as regulars... u feel somehow connected coz everybody r there to do some sort of exercise....and since i am probably the only foreigner there... i am sure they remember me much easier hehehe

Today's statistics? it is still 74kg... the same as yesterday...Everybody keep saying not to give up... the fat in the body may melt slower..but once u reach a breaking point...after that the body will start to lose weight much faster... i dunno where my breaking point is... it seems i cant bring it down to 69... i am at a static position of 74... i am not giving up...i will keep on doing my regular stuffs as much as i can..

Pınar, halil's cousin, suggested that i take up pilates.... she mentioned a cd i may be able to use...she said pilates really squeezed the muscle much better n may help me to lose weight faster... she did pilates last year when she was trying to lose weight.. now she has a drop dead gorgeous body... i took the easy way and asked her to find the cd for me n i will pay her later ..i mean there r so many pilates cd.. i dont wanna buy the wrong cd... we will see...

i think i will cycle for 15 minutes or so soon.. i need to work some more to be able to break this 74 kg position...last nite i stuffed myself with m&m's while watching tv with halil... thatz why i think my weight didnt decrease today...now that i am deviating myself away from carbonated drinks... my mind goes to chocolates! HELP! i am a hoeless case! hahahaha...

Like i said.. i wont give up... i have challenged myself... am challenging myself... and with perseverence to some extent... insyaAllah... i will get somewhere. My mission will be accomplished one day insyaAllah...





Food!!

The date says it is tuesday. i guess it is.



Rad suggested i make a cucumber juice to help my loosing weight challenge... she said... blend the cucumber with water and a bit of sugar.. add a fewice cubes n there u have it! u may wanna try it as well... it is anti oxidant..



what have i been doing lastweekend.. well... i coudnt walk. that was obvious. the kids were at home.


My kids r funny...it is not enough that they wake up at 6.30am every weekdays.. but this weekend, they decided to wake up even earlier! at 5am! Yup! that's my kids on Saturday morning this week... all the zaims were invited for dinner at afife teyze's house. that day as well.....she said she would only cook something simple..pehli n rice n salad... the idea was for us to get together.. n what did she cook instead?? loads of food!!! we were all bloating that nite! I tried to at least minimize the fat intake by cycling that nite...did 2 rounds of 15 minutes cycling (the seat hurt my butt)... i was sweating loads...


Sunday was a quite day...... i tried the kids n i stayed at home while halil was working...n what did i eat that day? shrimps n speghetti! it was not what i am supposed to eat... i mean speghetti is very oily..so i tried to balance the dish by putting very less oil in the shrimp dish (i ate alone by the way.. halil n the kids r hanafi..shrimps r makhruh for them) ....


Monday.. woke up at2 am.. to watch my favourite episodes on tv...by 4am, smallville was over... this crazy me decided to cycle then! hahahah yeah! cyyling at 4am!! hhahaha i managed to cycle till 4.45am (that was how long my butt could take...)... took my bath and went to sleep by 5am... and YES! the kids decided to be kind to me and they woke up at 6am! hahahaha ... do u see why i love my kids???as the kids were at home then.....halil n i decided to go for lunch as a family at a kebap shop...ah..diet at a kebap shop? u have got to be kidding eh? besides, i dont want to be left out as they ate those delicious food.... hatice n halil decided to order iskender kebap while baddin decided on his favourite lahmacun... i without doubt asked for my favourite perde pilavı (inside there is specially made rice..covered with flour dough..really delicious!)

It may not look much but trust me.. there r loads of rice in it... i could only finish half! hahahah..cycled again last nite... not long...just for half an hour... i was exhausted from lack of sleep...and today...again..i cannot resume my walk.. baddin is coughing really bad... we decided not to send him to school today..it is cloudy n the road is wet..it must have rained n perhaps will rain again today... .

baddin needs my constant attention today... he is being anne's baby boy.. he keeps asking for me to be next to him...to hug him...i dunno how i will cook today....anyway...he is calling me... i will probably cycle again tonite after he sleeps...

my statistics today? 74kg! an achievement after all the delicious food at teyze n lunch at the kebap restaurant!

Hopefully, i will be able to walk tomorrow.. it will depend on baddin n the weather.. but i am seriously glad that there is my indoor bike... i can still cycle and do some exercise despite the weather outside... or the health of my kids...

My weight is not decreasing these days... i am for one to be blamed but i shall not stop doing my walk or my indoor cycling whenever i can... i am determined to have a better body. i am not aiming for a slim body... i am aiming for a body which is nice to be hugged (meaty) but not excessively fat. A body that is nice to the eye.

baddin's calling! byeeeeeeeeeeee

Halil has been busy this week. i barely see him. This weekend he wont be around too! Tapi nak buat mcm mana la kan.. nak balik mesia tahun depan kena la kerja keras sikit....

So for a little bit of attention, i demANded that he too walk with me this morning (since he only need to leave for work by 10am this morning). But with halil... of course i cannot do my routine walk..i usually leave for my walk at 7.40am.. with halil it was 8am... and guess how long we walked? by 8.35am we were already heading home!! hahahahahah i usually came out from the walking park at 9.30 !!

We had a nice big breakfast (yeah... i dont usually fast on friday n weekends)...he has left for work... i am still updating my blog n will soon put my butt on the my indoor bike for at least half an hour (or more... depending on my butt pain)...after the big breakfast, i am afraid to look at the scale today... coz.... we ate fish for dinner last nite... and fish means the drinks will be one of the carbonated ones hehehehe...opssssssssss...(i am gonna cycle okayy??)

wont be updating much.. weekends i dont walk coz the kids r at home..n this monday is a public holiday... wont be walking then too...


Have a nice weekend everyone! and here i am offffff to my painful butt cycling experience :0)

FİZZY DRİNKS RECİPE

In her effort to encourage me not to touch coke anymore, our dearest Queen of the House
has presented me with this recipe..taken from her son's science book... once i find the ingredients.. i will definitely try it.. thanks akak! I owe u one....

To Make Your Own Fizzy Drink,

you need: ...

A glass of waterLemon juice
Castor sugar
Baking soda(also known as Bicarbonate of Soda or Sodium Bicarbonate)

And how do you do it?

Squeeze some lemon juice into the glass of water and stir in a teaspoon of castor sugar.
Add a teaspoon of baking soda.
Enjoy!!!!(You can substitute/add other acidic fruit juices as well)

The baking soda and lemon juice react to make carbon dioxide in the water (the bubbles that you see in fizzy drinks).


And by the way, here's an interesting experiment.

What happens when you add a handful of raisins to a glass of fizzy drink?

Put 5 or 6 raisins in a glass of fizzy drink and watch what happens. (A lighter coloured fizzy drink works better so you can see the raisins).First the raisins sink because they are more dense or heavier than the drink. Then bubbles of compressed carbon dioxide form under the raisins. The bubbles make the raisins float, so they rise and when the bubbles reach the surface they burst. That means the raisins are heavier than the drink again so they sink. .... Then they rise to the top..... And sink again..... And then rise again..... And sink again.

Great entertainment when you're bored in the kitchen!!!!
Food!!

Hatice isin school today. She is on antibiotics...her fever.. the reason is obvious now.. sore throat...


I thought i'd walk today...alas! the mp3 is mising! the rightful owner (that would be my tem) took it coz he was going to the university with his big bro selim with the uni bus service.... this is pure sabotage! heheheh


Anyway...turned on the music cd on the dvd... started to sit on the indoor bike... cycled for 20 minutes when i realised that i miss my normal songs on halil's mp3...stopped cycling...(i was bathing in sweat by that time anyway...)... and remembered the workout cd by paula abdul that itique (my tesl friend) gave me more than 7 years ago...turned it on.. and started working out (i think i need to wear proper shoes for the workout)... i could only stand 20 minutes! hahahaha i was breathless by then...rezil yaaa! will try the workout again during the weekend with hatice n baddin... believe it or not, both love the cd...

I think maybe this is due to lack of sleep.. havent slept properly for 2 nights already..last night i was moving from hatice's bed to baddin' bed... for some reasons... both were demanding me... sleeping in their beds...i wont even elaborate the condition of my back pain right now hehehe

Yes. lack of exercise this morning... but the good thing is.. the is pazar today (mcm pasar tani)... in pazar alone, i will walk around one and a half hour to two hours..immediately after that, i plan to go to the kids' school to check on hatice... if she is not feeling well..i may just bring her home early today...and on top of everything....i am fasting today...full day today... was thinking of updating my quill blog as well as blog hopping... but i dont think it is possible today.. tomorrow perhaps....

today's statistics? 74.1kg

and NO..i didnt drink any carbonated drinks yesterday! :0)


Food!!

Hatice has fever. We thought it would be better if she just stay at home today.It was raining this morning anyway...so no walk for me.

u Bet being used to walking on weekdays left me feeling empty inside...but i cant possibly abandon my lil princess can i?Then, i remembered my indoor bike. We bought it years ago but i rarely used it coz i get bored easily while cycling it.Besides, the seat hurts my bump (i need to protect my beloved bump too u know!)hehehe

But this morning, i said to myself... awwwwwwwwww gee... what the heck! so with the mp3 on...my eyes on hatice (she was watching tv)....i started cycling...for 30 minutes...my initial plan was 1 hour but my princess needed me..(she has been demanding me to hug her eversince last nite)

I just cant believe it! 30 mins cycling n i sweated much much more than i walk one hour n a half! i was practically bathing in sweat!Then, i remembered my selulit oil... i used that esp for my tummy area... i bought that oil a year ago..but the smell is terrible..thatz why i never really use it...perhaps once in a while i should try this oil....?

So what have i learned/ percieved this morning?

1. halil's mp3 (which i use 100%) is definitely a very important element for me not to get bored while walking n cycling...coz i listen to Quranic verses as well as rock n hip hop music....so i am basically feeding my soul (with the quranic verses) as well as polluting it with those modern tunes :0)

2. On days when i cant walk outside, i should do the indoor cycling amidst painful bumps hahahha

3.Perhaps i should try cycling before going to sleep every nite? (i doubt i can coz i am totally exhausted by the end of the day)

4. i notice my breast is sagging (as a result of breastfeeding my kids for soooooooooo many many years)...halil doesnt mind...but i do..hmm.. what should i do about it? ideas?

It is terribly cloudy outside...hatice is sleeping... i didnt get much sleep last nite... i wanna sleep too but i have tons of ironing to do *sigh*.

Dear simah...chin up! pc off and get to work! life is a wonderful thing!:0)

My statistics this morning? 73.7kg!

i was fasting yesterday..n for iftar i didnt really eat much except for salad n soft n succulent turkey meat... (n 2 glasses of schweppes ..ops...guilty as charged! hehe).. ..

still fasting today...posa ganti la....this is not fasting to get slim.. this is fasting coz i have to...cant wait to fast in winter... the iftar should be around 5 or something :0)

I called Meşe just now.I asked her whehter she can ask for an appointment with the acupunturist sometime later next month. I really need to have my back looking at. It has been giving me pain for years. But why now? Why only now i wanna start looking after my back? Well.. when the back hurts, my feet hurts...if my feet hurts..i cant walk.. if i cant walk, i cant lose weight or do anything much. i will be dependng on apranax n kuilin my whole life...i dont want that. i may not be in a strict diet foodwise..but for my standard..i am quite careful... especially after this morning's walk..i need to do something regarding my back pain. Allah, help pls...

Food!!

Today is tuesday... Yeah..dont i know it eh?

right now i have a very very sore feet... i need to go to the foot manucurist if possible soon.. just need to wait for salary time..that will be early next month... :0)

Walked again (dont i always?)..But this morning... my back was/is painful..my feet hurt n i sort of had to drag my right feet while walking...all that one hour n a half... i had overexerted myself yesterday.. i worked non stop yesterday..and i do mean physically work...that by the midnight last nite... i couldnt press my right foot on the ground... i thought sleeping it off would took the pain away...it got better in the morning of course but not totally... i dont want to take apranaks unless i have to...i dont want my body to get used to too much chemicals...

today's statistics? At first the scale showed 73.6kg... but after some time, it decided to be 74kg! *chuckles*..i guess i am 74kg for today...am fasting today... still got loads of things to do today..with this feet..i dunno how i will do them... tomorrow i have to go to the kids' school...baddin has extra class from 4-6pm.. i have to be there before 4 to stay with hatice... i plan to let her do her homework while waiting for baddin.. n afterwards..for dinner i will bring them to burger king... i assume i will be fasting too tomorrow..so the timimng will be just perfect for my iftar...i may also forgo walking tomorrow...esp at the condition of my back n leg pain right now....Food!!

Post Bayram

My last statistics was 75.7kg.

After post ramadhan.. bayram with plenty of non stop cokes n desserts and salty things, i was again fearing for the worst. I got sick on that 2nd bayram night... the pain lasted for a few days actually.. hence, i could only walk 2 days last week... both the one hour n a half walk at çamlık park.

Last weekend (as in yesterday n the day before), i threw caution.... i fried fries... eat all the oily n fattening stuffs (though i knew i should be careful to achieve any weight loss)....it is only natural that i was afraid to look at the weighing scale.

After my walk this morning...i looked at my scale... 74.3kg! I always look at the scale after my walks... so u bet i am happy... happy at least that my weight is not 76 or 78 as i feared... i am not a fanatic must lose weight freak n i love my food... but i think as long as i do not abandon my morning walks...n be careful to some extend on the food i eat...i have a chance to at least not gain weight and with luck lose a bit of weight at that...

Meşe said i may have problem losing weight fast coz the fat has been with me for years.... i wont give up... even merih noticed that i looked smaller yesterday... i think that was because my body is getting in shape...

i am seriously thinking of doing akupunture of some sort to help me lose weight..but i think the cost will be high... what about the weight loss pills?the question is... r they healthy? will i start gaining weight again once i stop taking them? so for now, i will stick to this *free* weight program... a walk to çamlık park whenever possible...i know for sure that my thigh is getting smaller somehow....not much but enough to make me happy... after all.. i am still a fat woman...that fact doesnt change... i have till early july to get to 60kg... if i can do that, i will definitely suprise my family in malaysia when i go back to malaysia insyaAllah next year.... right now, what they have in their mind is a simah who is so fat that she is wearing size xxxl clothing... hey! i am only wearing xl u know! :0)

Food!!

After 5 donuts on friday, iftar at cavdır kösk where diet was not possible on saturday... another totally meat meat meat iftar at gunaydın restaurant for iftar on sunday... i was really really scared to look at the weighing scale this morning. İ braced myself...and it was written there...75.7kg...phew! i was expecting 79kg again! I guess fate is kind to me today.

And so i went walking again at çamlık park... i made a steady walk there... and instead of the usual total one hour walk at the walking platform... i extended to a total one and a half hour today..true, i fell asleep later afterwards..coudnt pull myself up for one hour and a half from the bed... but the weighing scale said...74.7kg!!! i didnt know that u can lose one kg with 2 hours walk !! (one hour n a half at çamlık park n half an hour going to and back home)...

Now back to work....cooking... household chores... ironing... thousands of things waiting for me...if i can keep this up...(a normal one hour walking )..my plan for a 60kg weght in july can be realised insyaAllah...i have 15kg more to go... :0) wish me luck! Food!!

Depression

I feel depressed. The crises at my homeland is making me sad..well.. they could have at least not start the crises on my birthday!

I felt so depressed yesterday that i ate 5.. and u heard me right 5 donuts!!On top of that, i kept eating n eating non stop...!!today, i am still unable to fast n keep on munching something the moment i woke up!this is how i am when i am depressed..well..at least tomorrow i can start fasting again... that is at least one good news to me.

i dare not ook at the weight scale. i know i have gained at least 2 kg (n i worked hard to lose that much kilos these past few weeks! sobs)

i am really ad inside... my eating pattern shows...n the best part of all... it is weekend..i cant do my usual morning walks.. ! and on tuesday, we r again expecting guests for iftars...*sigh*...

the crises is soo stupid... and it is really dragging me to rock bottom. i really really hate this.

Food!!

I celebrated my birthday yesterday by walking at çamlık park with halil and later... i followed him to the other side of the bridge and walked non stop from 10.20am till 1.30 pm! shopping.. what else!

One week were full with iftars. i couldnt walk. and i drank loads of coke as well... they were there in front of my eyes.. who could resist eh? Due to that, my weight did not decrease..(Alhamdulillah it did not increase either!!)..

Went for a walk again. again, at çamlık park. i like that place. the walking flatform is soft. so my feet does not hurt.ı am now limiting my walk at the park for a total of one hour. It takes 10 mnutes to walk there... thats 20 mins walk in total.. and at times, i deliberately reroute my journey home.. so around one hour n a half, i walk everyday. i find this arrangement the best for me. with my mp3 on..i could focus on my walk.And it is not overly exhausting either... i still have plenty of energy left for household chores and trips to the school ..ada ada ajer sebab nak kena pi sekolah...

What made me feel good about myself is i know i am getting fitter. Yesterday, as i was trying out my new marks n spencer jeans...with my t-shirt tucked in, belt securely in place...halil said...*wow! u look good. keep it up*...the truth is.. i am still fat...75.1kg fat..but i know with Allah's permission i can achive my 60kg goal in six and a maonths' tme left for me... all i need to do is to keep my focus on.. and i know i can coz the kids r in school. And i finally have time to look after myself...with determination n ur prayers...i know i can!

But i may indulge myself in donuts soon..i just have this strange craving for the dunkin donuts.. Hey! i said i wanna lose weight..but i didnt say that i have to kill my desires too!! :0)

Food!!

entry -3rd october

Today is only the second time of walk i did this week. the iftars r draining my energy away..n i still have one more to go tonite for this week....loads of work... but less walk..i lose not weight this week.. but that is ok...

generally people do comment that my body looks firmer...yes..i feel it too..i feel good about it though i still have a long way to go to reach my goal.. 16 kg more to go...that trust me is not an easy task...i have till july.but i try to keep a postive outlook on things...i wanna feel great to be alive...esp with a better body...i mean if i am slimmer, i can save money by buying clothes from pazar instead of the limited shops like right now... then, i can save more money for the family's usage...esp if we r going to malaysia next year...

Food!!Ah.... can wait to taste all those food i miss so much.that is one more main rason for this losing weight..so that i can gobble the food there more freely...n i know halil wants me to have a 3rd child... if Allah decides that i get pregnant..i think at this age n at this weight.. it is a risky business....many many resons eh for me to start losing weight?

Pls..pray 4 me :0)