baba will have his operation at 10 am turkish time... 3pm malaysian time... i will join the rest of the zaim siblings in our wait for baba n the operation..

yesterday, i felt fat coz i had not done any proper park walking for 2 days..yes..i do walk here n there... but it was not enough to make me feel good..


so this morning i woke up at 6am... cycled for half an hour, woke the kids up... sent them off to school n later cycled for another 15 minutes... i would have cycled more but i am not sure when halil will return home (he stayed at babaz to look after his dad last nite)....so i quit quite fast.. took my bath (i was totally sweaty after that)... and here i am..waiting for my beloved to come home..to have breakfast with me n later head for the hospital...

i was right... exercise lift my spirit (everyone knows that fact anyway)... i feel better now... i am still fat ayway... i dare not look at the weighing scale today... and by the way...i had this craving for soy milk yesterday.. found the soy beans n made my soy milk...i love it with brown sugar but i didnt have it at home... so i had to make do with the whte sugar...ahhhh..heaven on earth! i still crave for sugar cane juice... but we dont have sugar cane here.. have to wait till i go to malaysia next year... which brings me back to the question.. will we be able to go back to malaysia next year? baba is sick..in this condition... we cant leave the country...thats unthinkable...Allah knows... Anyway... this weight challenge is up n on the go!

p.s... yesterday i went to carrefour with my dear beloved.was in front of dunkin donuts.. managed to convince myself not to buy them super sweet donuts (they claim that itz zero cholestrol! hehehe)..right now.. i regret it coz i am actually salivating thinking of them donutS! huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... cabarannnnnn...

In lieu with the recent event... i turn to food for comfort as i always do when i feel depressed...

Still..i still go for my walk whenever the weather permits me..n at home whenever my energy allows me..i cycle....

I would have been able to lose more weight if i have not throw caution n indulge myself in the world of food...i am dangerously thinking of dunkin donuts right now... knowing me.. i know i will buy them soon..*sigh*

my statistics now is 72.1kg

i dont think i will be updating this blog a often as i used to. i am emotionally not up to it...baba is not getting any better....i havent even shown u the pics of my beloved park..though u can get a glimpse of it at the biggggg picture above..but i know.. i shall not abandon my weight challenge...i have come this far...and exercising like this can somehow help me to lift up my spirit...

Today is a crazy day.

Woke up at 6am... did some ironing..woke the kids up at 6.30am... threw them out of the house heheheh by 7.35am..threw myself out of the house by 7.40am..only to see the 3 kids still waiting for their school bus service.... luckily, the service came not long after that...

And off i went to my beloved park (yeah..yeah..pictures soon to come)...walked there for an hour and a half...rushed home coz mıstık would be coming to our place with the heater fixer...they came.. cooked them turkish coffee... paid the guy and left them to take a bath... then, i rushed to the bank to pay my credit card....rushed to the kids' school to deal with injections n immunisations matter.... rushed to bağdat caddesı to buy some things for baddin's supriz gunu...rushed to teyze coz i needed to see meşe ..rushed to kadiköy to buy teyze's belated birthday gifts and fish... rushed home... and i am puffing!! hahahaha and on top of all those... i am fasting!

i am officially 72.6kg now... yippie!! at least i have lost the one kilo i gained durtng the weekend!!

and even teyze commented i look good eversince i have lost my weight... Alhamdulillah..

Monday it is.

Last thursdays naturally i made a pig out of myself by eating all those wonderful stuffs kak elle sent me. Friday, i went for my normal morning walk... saw my cat there and played with him for a while. i missed him.

Saturday morning, from the moment i woke up, i was in the kitchen cooking stuffs for halil's birthday. It was until 3pm that i stopped...but everybody loved the food i cooked..so it was worth it... again... a glutton i was with non stop of coke (yeah yeah..i know....)..so saturday..my exercise was... standing while cooking from morning till 3pm.. and later serving the family at baba's for halil's birthday.... till it was over....i ate a lot but i was totally exhausted by the time i got home..... and u know what? normally my leg will be painful after such a long day of hard work..due to my back being fragile... but there was no pain last saturday!! that means that my losing weight is helping my pain as well!! Alhamdulillah!!

Sunday... i was out of the house by 9am... went to the kids school (without the kids... they stayed at home with their dad)...there was the parents meeting ... and then there was the report card distribution n later i went tosee both of my kids' teachers (of every subject) one by one... in ques for hours n hours n finally by 4pm.. i headed towards the sahil area to wait for the bus... halil n the kids were at baba...

the weather was sooo windy. i could barely walk ...if i had been with lesser weight... even i would be flown away (no joking..the wind was that strong).. i was basically walking with one hand holding my headcover..and the other clutching the kids' report cards....and to top the whole situation... it started to rain..it was freezing as well...3 dolmus passed by but they were full.. they were not taking passengers... i was hungry (i only ate one muesli bar for breakfast)...i was tired... and i needed to go to baba.. i started to shiver...a guy in peugeot that passed by made a sign signalling for me to get into his car... i suppose he pitied me...but of course i didnt get into the car... u dont get into a stranger's car unless it is life threatening!! Alhamdulillah...a normal long bus passed by. I went into the bus.Stopped at bostancı and from there took a dolmus to baba.

Sweet Sweet halil, had ordered a big mac menu for me!! All waiting for me!! i grabbed everything in a second! hahaha i was that famished!!coke as well!! on top of that...i ate a few leftover dolma from saturday..and on top of that..i finished halil's plate of green grapes and orange!! and after that, all totally full.. halil n i went for a walk at bağdat caddesı .. and we stopped over for dessert! hahahaha Yeah.... i know what u must be thinking.. i know.... i didnt know what got over me!! And today i could go for my walk as well coz mıstık would come to our place early in the morning to fix something... no exercise there... but i have tons of things of leaning n tidying up to do today... tomorrow i will start my exercise again insyaAllah...

After all that... a total eating weekend... it will be impossible not to gain weight eh? i have gained ONE kilo!! that is why tomorrow.. my usual exercise and walk will resume. Rain or shine...

insyaAllah

Today it is 9 degree celicus. Not bad for fall...the heaters r on... the heating system in apartments all over turkey is on...

It was cloudy this morning...but it didnt rain... the sun even took a brief peek at us... hence, i decided to go for my walk.i didnt go walking yesterday.

I was thinking today....2 months ago, my stamina level was almost nil. I remember my first days of walking....to walk and reach the park i go to everyday used to drain my energy away. ..that was only 20 mins walk from my home to the park...in my early days, i only walked 15 minutes.... then i expanded to 30 minutes.. then 45 minutes..then 1 hour and lastly 1 hour and a half at the park.....i used to walk so slow (still in a momentum)... after some time, i increased my tempo.....my stamina has excelled to the level i am not used to.. i no longer feel tire as i used to...

The same with my indoor bicycle.. at first, the first 15 minutes was all i could do..but then slowly, i increased my cycling duration... now i think i can do 55 minutes of cycling..i dont think i can cycle more coz i simply get bored cycling with nothing to see...

Yes..everything was tough at the beginning..perseverence and patience... they were worth it... i have no regrets spending countless hour just to get fit...

I also realised today for the first time ever... today as i was walking, for the first time ever, i felt as if my abdomen was tightening... there was a sensation that my abdomen fat was being burnt as i walked... i never had that feeling before...i think that is such good news... i even thought of extending my walk to 2 hours today since i wont be walking tomorrow (have got a breakfast date with rudi and halil tomorrow)...Of course...Allah knows best... i think HE objected to that and decided to let it start to drizzle at exactly one hour and a half of my walk... i dont think that was a coincidence... i think that was simply Him telling me to go home :0)

Snapped pictures of the park too..but i wont put them up yet...wait till saturday!
this effort of losing weight...it makes me feel good about myself...i feel fitter... i feel happy. Thatz the main idea i think..

will i walk under the cool weather? insyaAllah.. at every possible opportunity definitely!

Drenched to the bone yesterday.... frozen....

statistics?

72.8!!!!!!!!!

like our Queen said... things r looking good... dreaming of the moment when i will be good looking.

This morning 73.3kg!!! Yippie!!!

I am not shedding my fat much in number..but let us just say..yes! i am shaping up!

My new marks n spencer jeans which i bought after my birthday (4th oct)..*wei..pakai hadiah duit birthday tau..i mana mampu belikat marks n spences!* which was tight (thigh hugging) when i first bought it ..in which halil cakap tak boleh pakai kat luar which i pakai jugak hahahah (isteri derhaka...maaf yea cayang)..is now loose a lot!

And yesterday..last nite...i wore my tightest jeans in which the last time i wore it 2 months ago.. the thigh part stitches ....were threatening to burst from my body fat............ is now a bit loose!! Alhamdulillah!! Alhamdulillah!! i think both walking n cycling (indoor) r helping me shed more fat much easier!!

I will be walking tomorrow..but not at my beloved park... tomorrow i will walk loads shopping!! YES! İ will be going to europe!I need to buy a few things from digo for halil..this n that for the kids..but most importantly... i will be going to find things (as much as i can afford)... as souvenirs for my beloved Kak Elle!!! Yes! her nephew will be here n on thursday i will be able to eat my maggie!! Alhamdulillah!!! So from 7.35am till perhaps 4.00pm...i will be on the move tomorrow...

*Ya Allah please please be kind to me n let it be sun and shine tomorrow*

... and guess what?? halil got the sms from the nikkon service centre saying that our CAMERA is FİXED!!!! Mistikkkkkkkkk can u pleaseeeee fetch it up from the shop for me??? (kenapa i tak ambik sendiri? hehehe i kan manja kat mistik...i suka kacau dia coz dia dah mcm abang i)

Life is looking up today..just like the sunny weather outside....after the rain... here comes the sun...life is like that....May Allah help us all in every sense (in my case..my weight :0)

Yesterday, the call of the bed was so strong....and so.. instead of my morning walk at the park..i was busysnoring next to the man i love...Zzzzzzzzzzzz

We woke up to the bell of Saime coming (the ironing lady)...My ever demanding self demanded Halil to go to the pattiserie nearby for a romantic breakfast....He had menemen (turkish omelette) while i had omelette with mushroom for breakfast...an omelette for 6YTL? Yeah.....expensive i know but i miss having a romantic date with him... eating omelette on a date is definitely cheap heheheh

What i missed in my walk, i covered with the pazar walking... after 2 hours of walking, i reached home n continued cycling my indoor bike for half an hour...

We were expecting guests yesterday..... after eating 2 types of börek... kısır, rus salata, cake and apple pie....i was/am no hopeful much regarding my weight scale...

But i am determined..i told u that... so this morning, despite the totally cloudy weather.. i went for my usual walk.. the cat bite me today..ouch!...caught in the rain at exactly 9.30am as i was leaving the park after my usual one hour and a half.......... but it is ok....i will probably cycle some more after this...

Even though i am not losing much weight despite my hard effort..everything feels worth it yesterday....

There i was asking a clothing seller for a dress i like there....the guy asked me in turkish...

* i have loads of patterns for the dress....u choose the dress and i will give u the size.. i think u can fit the *L* size....*

Such a thing happened twice...

i was beaming inside... not because i am wearing an *L* size right now....i am still in my *XL*..but the fact that the guy percieved me in *L* size (he is a clothing seller, ok)...that is good news... that means..the firming up of my body is showing itself well....i have loads of bulk everywhere...but such sentences keeps me motivated... and i also notice that i can sweat much more easier today... despite the 14 degree celcius outside...

I will persevere... i want to shock my mom insyaAllah next year when i visit Malaysia...everything will be worth it. Pls.. Pray for me..

My statistics today? 73.8kg.
WORK HARD SİMAH!!! (p.s...am thinking of dunkin donuts! huwaaaaaa)

Food!!