tem on diet

Food!!

Tem is determined to go on diet.. He just told me... he will eat normal lunch and for dinner he will try to eat only types of salads and fruits..i am confident it will be hard for him.. but..it will be good if he can stick to it...we both do really need to lose weight..

me again.

Food!!

Tem is on diet... but i somehow sabotage him...kizartma patlican as part of diet food? he needs to go on diet as the doctor ordered...for his knee sake...i need to join him too...but i cant get into the mood...give me a few more days to collect myself n my spirit.. at least nowadays i try not to cook too much oily food for him...more vegetables.. i dont think vegetables make him full..he eats less rice n pasta...i have got to hand it to himn though... at least he is trying... i will try too...a bit later... too depressed nowadays.. dunno why...my temper ignites at the very simplest of reasons... i raise my voice for much too often.. (may tem forgive me) ..i know i shouldnt..but i do.. before i enter this diet thing with real determination..i need to collect my thoughts...collect my patience.. i will..hmmm... i love my tem... i hope he can endure me some more..

Burger king...hmm..nice diet!!

Food!!

Just got back..brought the kids to burger king...they have been wanting to go out the whole day..we walked thru the rain to the turk petrol burger king...ordered the kids burger menu...3 of them!! couldnt help myself...the temptation was too strong... now i realize why burger king cannot compete with mac D..first, some parts of the meat patties were somehow burnt?..the orange juice? what orange juice? It tasted sooo terrible. i left the supposedly juice where it was...is this bad taste for the whole burger king or is it only at the place i ate? That i am not certain..if there is Mac D, i wouldnt go to burger king...but the kids had a great time there and they told me that they will want to go there again... if i must go there..i think i will just stick to something *healthy* like coke?
tsk tsk...insaf simah...insaf...

I ate..

hmmm... i am full..

breakfast?-an orange and fresh milk..
lunch...?? hmm...let me see..1 bowl of action man soup...2 bowls of kapuska (hey!! i love kapuska with loads of chilli!!) ..and for drinks... iced coke (red alert red alert!!!)
.. dinner i expect will be late...halil will come home around 9.30pm...i suppose i will eat kapuska (again!!!).. .but waiting for halil to come home...what will i stuff myself with? hmmm pls do not ask me that question...

I Think..

i will need to cut down on coke....coke only once a week?

I Wish..

I wish i can say that i dont dream the body i used to have when i was in my 20s...i wish i can say my love for cooking and eating does not affect the accumulation of tremendous weight i have....being good looking...at least ok looking ..not with that lumps of fat left,right,back, front,up and down...it is depressing really...since everyone else is slim and good looking....diet? i have tried...i just cant stick to one...it went well a couple of months ago..but like in 2 weeks' time, i gained all the fat i had lost....it does brings one down....i wish i am better looking selulitwise...but not doing about it wont be helping anyone..least of all me...so do something simah!! do something!!

First of all..

ME and Diet???