My update

As much as i would love to continue challenging myself... eversince baba has been hospitalised, i find myself to be unable to do any single exercise at all.

Every weekdays (monday till friday) i will leave the house by 7.35am and will leave the hospital by 2.30pm with the ETA at home (of 3.30pm)...tidying up my home, preparing the food so that there will be dinner by 4i.35pm as the kids reach home.... homework being done by the kids....i find myself extremely exhausted by the end of the day....

No walking at my beloved park and no indoor cycling (i just dont have the energy or the mood)... is affecting my weight challenge (though i wanna continue it still.. just tak terdaya)...i am eating more than i should due to depression...though i still stay away from coke....i m gaining my weight again... that makes me feel sad coz i had worked very hard to shed that 7.5 kg!!... i am seriously thinking of diet pills in place of exercise (at least tilli can start walking at my park again)..but the price is 60YTL..i cant afford that...I am not complaining looking after baba in the mornings thus i cannot walk... i do it sincerely from the heart....coz i want to...he is my dad too...i am just a bit down coz i am seeing my body fat that i had shed the last 2 months reappearing...Still..Allah knows best...besides.....i am fat...but that doesnt mean that inside i am ugly, eh? Halil recognises and loves me for who i am and not for what my physical represent. One day... i vow... i shall start walking again...Only time will tell...pls, dont abandon me now.